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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

14.06.2025 00:58

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

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We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Especially a lifetime of it.

What happened to your school bully?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I took a video of my serve (60 FPS) and it took 0.4 seconds from my racket to the service line. How fast would you say my serve was?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She found it foreign!.

How exactly do things get smuggled into prison? Does the sender hide it inside something else very well? Does someone put it in their butt? Do the prisoners make deals with the officers?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Ive learnt so much.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

What caused North Korea to go poor when at first it was rich?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I never cut or harmed myself..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

What were the first few days, weeks, months and then years like after finding out about your spouses infidelity? How did your feelings, and yours & their approach to the situation change in the immediate aftermath compared to later down the line?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Do you think trump realizes that if he significantly decreases the size of CIA, that there is a higher chance of him being assassinated?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

She married twice! .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

How can someone effectively handle a targeted individual?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Who then, do I blame.?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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She wouldn,t have been !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Are women as visual as men are?

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

So, i spoilt her more .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I was 9 years of age.

I will be 64.

I waited trembling.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I write beautiful poetry .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He knew the spot.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Put me off passion for life!!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We were not on the streets..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was seconnd youngest,

I have no regrets .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But ive been too sick for many years..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

As i do to all so called friends.?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Comes on , in middle age.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

(And it was in our own minds.)

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

All the time i was locked up.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was very sick at this time too.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

And i lived it daily.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So whats the point in blame.

Was to survive, this bastard.

When she asked me how she looked .

Would this be the day?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Im still living with it.

I was scared of men, in general

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It was going to be , some day.

This is soul school!.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My family never makes their pension either.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One cannot live in the past .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My life is so biszare .

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I don,t even have a pension.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I said to her

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But it wasn’t much.

What did i know ?

But, we were locked up after school.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I couldn’t, believe it.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

She loved him until the end.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We all went to grammer schools

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She was in good health!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I could never make a relationship work though!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..